心死了就不会通了吗？

Putting on a fake smile .
Telling the world ; Hello world , I'm happy !
I'm so hollow , who can help ?
Is this what I should do everyday ?

羅志祥 - 搞笑
我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

不懂为什么 ； 听这首歌时会觉得很想哭感觉到我就好像那首歌酱。

要习惯一个人的生活。
你的事与我无关。请你离我远远的　！
所有の一切,我都不想再提起了。

我不喜欢下雨，因为那里有太多关于你的记忆
我大声的告诉自己，我能忘记你，我能做得到，可是只不过是自己欺骗着自己

我告诉自己心一点也不痛，不痛！因为死掉的心怎么可能会痛！

一个人的世界 。

习惯了孤独的我，
开始喜欢寂寞。
在很深很深的夜里，
独享那份静寂。

一个人的世界，
会有一种无奈。
与自己的心灵对话，
释放自己的脆弱，


一个人的世界，  只有一个人懂。

一个人 。

一个人笑，一个人哭
没有幸福跟别人分享
也没有痛苦跟别人分担
一切都很淡然

每天都重复着同样的生活节奏
吃饭，上学,上网聊天,睡觉
除了这些，其他的生活全部与我无关

分手快乐。

Game Over.

ME 。

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you.At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage= Hot chocolate
2. last phone call = Ivan
3. last text message = Edison
4. last song you listened to = 《分手快乐》 梁静茹
5. last time you cried = Yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Yeah
7. been cheated on = Urm... Yeah
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Erm... Maybe.
9. lost someone special = Yea
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Erm... Nope , I wont drunk because i don't drink xD

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Pink
13. Blue
14. Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yeah
16. Fallen out of love = Yea
17. Laughed until you cried = YES !!
18. Met someone who changed you = Erm...probably.
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yeah !
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Yeah !
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = No?

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Quite of them.
24. Do you have any pets = No ! I HATE PETS .__."
25. Do you want to change your name = Yes ! I've been wanted for so long .
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Celebrate Whole Day Long ! xD
27. What time did you wake up today = 6.30a.m damn the school ! =.="
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = SMS . Watch Movie . Talking on phone xD
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Eat Sleep Eat Sleep .
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Since I was 3 years old.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = MONEY ! PARENTS !
32. What are you listening to right now = 王菀之 - 我真的受傷了 ; 方炯镔-坏人
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = No?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Someone that I shouldn't love but I did =.="
35. Most visited webpage = Blogger , Friendster, Facebook
36. Where you want to be right now = Japan.Korean .
37. Nicknames = Miko , 阿蜜 
38. Relationship Status = Its Complicated . Single
39. Zodiac sign = Taurus *I'm stubborn x:
40. Male or female? = Female.
41. Elementary? = SMK Taman Bukit Maluri .
42. Middle school =
43. Hair colour = Brownish/Redish Black.
44. Long or short = Long? Medium. xD
46. Height = 160++ Din't measure !
47. Do you have a crush on someone = Maybe or maybe not . I'm not sure bout this =/
48. What do you like about yourself = Don't know . Lols !
49. Piercings = Erm ... Yeah x:
50. Tattoos = Nope.. Maybe will on future? o.o" 
51. Righty or lefty = Righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery =
53. First piercing = 4~5 years old.
54. First best friend = Standard 4 till now ((: wees*
55. First kiss = That Guy !
56. First vacation = Singapore.
57. First crush = Standard 6. *childish >.<"

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = You !
60. Drinking = Hot Chocolate.
61. I'm about to = Posting.
62. Listening to = Wheesung - Insomnia
63. Waiting for = Some Texts.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = Erm ... scare pain x: hahas !
65. Get married = Of course.
66. Career = Who knows .__."

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Lips.
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older to 21 xD
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Nice arms.
73. Sensitive or loud = Loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = Yeah =.="
77. Drank hard liquor = Nope.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Yeah ! Shyt !
79. Sex on first date =
80. Broken someone's heart = Yeah ):
81. Had your own heart broken = Sureee !
82. Been arrested =
83. Turned someone down = Yeah.
84. Cried when someone died = Sure
85. Fallen for a friend? = YEAH ):

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Yeah
87. Miracles = Last time... probably =@="
88. Love at first sight = No !!
89. Heaven = Hell probably [ my house ]
90. Santa Claus = Lawls. He's my papas ! =.=
91. Kiss on the first date = Yeah ! So normal !
92. Angels = Not sure !

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= Yea.
95. Did you sing today? = Yes !! everyday .
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = Yes. sorry !
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = probably 3 years old ! Long stories.
98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = Yes !!!!
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = YES !!!

People I tag:

Tracy
iko 
Koyo 
iimo

L-viin
Meng
Mashiko

mojojojo
Rex - xiaocool
Keivin
huii


Many more...
Anyone that read this post ((:

.

Sleep .

   

     I want to wake up for this long dream .I can hear your voice echo in my ear, calling me . Honestly, I am tired to try to make myself happy when it only last for few minutes ; but it took a lot of afford just feel a little joy.

     I feel so empty when I go to other places. I cant change anything . I cant forget anything. The more memories I have about others; - Does not help me to forget u at all.

     No matter how hard I try to wake up I seemed to still sleep.Nothing interest me anymore - It just as ingredient of topics. Actually, I love to be alone ; lose in my own thought . Just really sleep in real dream

If ...

If tomorrow is end of the world.
Then today will you all ... ?

Get back everything to normal.
Friend like we always be.
Laugh like we're still a kids.
Cry like we lost our chocolate.
Share secrets. Share sweet - sad momment.

or...

You all will just continue like that ?


...

Hide Tide or Low Tide .

By Ben Harper & Jack Johnson

High Tide or Low Tide
Yes, in high seas or in low seas
I'm gonna be your friend
You know that I'm gonna be your friend
Any so in high tide or in low tide
I'll be by your side
You know that I'll be by your side
I heard her praying, praying, praying - mmh
I said I heard my mother
Her praying, praying, praying - mmh
She was praying in the night
And the words that she said, the words that she said
They still linger in my Head, linger in my Head
She said : "A child is Born into this World
He needs protection" - yeah
God, guide and protect us
When we're wrong, please correct us
When we're wrong, correct us
And stand by me
In these high seas or in low seas
I'm gonna be your friend
You know that I'm gonna be your friend
Any so in high tide or in low tide
I'll be by your side
You know that I'll be by your side
I said I heard my mother
Her crying, crying, crying - mmh
She was crying in the night
And the tears that she shed, the tears that she shed
They still linger in my Head, linger in my Head
She said : "A child is Born into this World
He needs protection" - yeah
God, guide and protect us
When we're wrong, please correct us
When we're wrong correct us
And stand by me
In these high seas or in low seas
I'm gonna be your friend
You know that I'm gonna be your friend
Any so in high tide or in low tide
I'll be by your side
You know that I'll be by your side

Simple life.

Well lets begin with this ; School Reopen .
Everything not going right as I've thought of , but its ok (:
There's no problem without a solution.
I'll find the way to make it right but if I failed , then i cant do anything
Just live like there's no tomorrow .

What is a friend?
A single soul dwelling in two bodies.
I'll keep waiting on . 1 day 1 week 1 month or even 1 year .
You all are still my friend although there's many problem happened between us ;-unsolved problem .
Words are easy, like the wind; Faithful friends are hard to find.
I'll appreciate .


Why must us take the hard life than simple ?
Why must us make it so complicated ?
Why don't start it once again than suffering like this ?
You all happy ? I'm so sure I can tell u here. I'm tired ; suffering .
Let's no war ! Peace can make it different .
Can you all ?

How simple life is?
It's as simple as this: you're hungry and you eat, you're full and you shit.
Between eating and shitting, that's where human life is found.

Alone we can do so little ; together we can do so much .
Guess you all got learn it before. Try to think bout it (:
Change your mind.
And we'll always be friends forever, wont we ?

Live life simple . ;-Happy everyday as we're lacking of time.
Time is precious .

好想不去想。

      

         好想写点东西但是写不出来,好想宣泄但是不知道为什么，为了谁，心里无尽的压抑可以和谁说，好痛苦，
好想麻木自己，玩，喝酒，抽烟，但是做不到，好想就此忘记，但是扪心自问也是做不到，
不知道自己每天想什么，压抑。
       身边的人都说我变了，没感觉，什么也感觉不到了，只想找个没人的地方自己 呆着，那样感觉会舒服一点，
 呵呵。不知道我真的不知道，为什么，为了什么，这里是我唯一可以诉说的地方。


D:

Hopefully .

I hope everything has end now .
Thanks for people who have been so caring (: I love you all !

I tell them the truth.
I felt so free ;- had realeased all the things that i kept for so long.
I shouldn't keep this secret for this kind of people.
You're pissed or whatever.Ok do it ! I just do the right thing .
She have the right to know the truth !
And I wanna tell you here.
Stop being like that. Appreciate things around you.
I'm sure that you'll regret 1 day !

Hear or don't ;- your wish ! If you choose to angry me.
Okays.. I'll take it as you'll never change !

My bees -
Cheer up ((: ;I'm always by your side whenever you need me.
Baby -
This kind of ppl no need to care. Let her be ! She'll regret 1 day .

Friendster .
Finally I on. Hees*
Reply all my comments and approve/regret some friend request .
Now I'm going on FACEBOOK.

Facebook.
m-miko@live.com

Addicted x; Pet Society .

h0h0s !

Tangisanku .

Tangisanku ; Hidupku yang pahit sebegini.
Dapatkah kamu merasainya ?
Rupanya di malam hari, kesunyian membuat kita lebih peka.
Tapi tak setiap orang, tidak juga aku, mampu mencari jalan keluar.

Happy ending ?

At last I can give out a little smile since these awful day.
Just shortly a few days; there's so many unexpected things happened .
At last can end now;-I hope so.
As Mitch Albom said ; " Death ends a life, not a relationship."
I promised you all- I can do it ! won't end my life anymore ♥
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.

Thanks for being my in my life !

The end 。

          Everything just not going right . Things is getting worst day after day . Our friendship is getting sink day by day . Who can I nag bout this ? No one ! I'm the one who causes all these bad income . So , Who can I blame ? Only can blame myself . If you all don't believe me ; Its ok . I just wanna tell you all here . Your best friend among you all now is not as good as you think she is . She did the most unexpeted things but its just so normal for me.Because i know the real her... and you all don't ! Believe or don't is on your hand . 

That's just , all i wanna say 。


Goodbye my friend 。

不能原谅的错。

Sorry , yesterday I din't reply all of you because my phone is currently out of credit .
 I'm so sorry for making you all worry about me...
Thanks for all babes advice . You all did help alot.
I called babe wen yesterday night.
Talk about an hour using my house phone.
Well, she's having problems too .
So me and her were like crying to each other and telling each other stories.
Then we hang off and I call over miss tracy .
She sent me over 5-6 messages to me .
Thanks babe ((:


I'm so sorry to one of my babe .

I saw her blog.
I felt a thousand of wrongs is falling on me.
I can feel how pain is her .
I just craved a 'Pain' word on her heart. What I did ? Why ?
Leaving him is just like poking my heart and smashing it into pieces.
My heart is so disguise . 
Friend . Love .
Sorry . Please forgive .



Don't worry bout me girls (:
I'm ok... a little hurt is just nothing.

My bees .
If things can be so simple as you thought there may be no problem for me.
But ... the answer is NO.
Our friendship is getting sink in the water.
Things happened cannot be change .
I'm sorry . That's the word I wanna say .
Either u all will throw just throw it or act like you never see before.
But ... I still wanna say I'M SORRY . SO SORRY !
' We always love you ' This word you wrote to me ? Probably is only you'
I hurted her too much... too deep . She wouldnt forgive me.

Anyways thanks my bees.


I'm regretting .
Everything was just my fault .
I shouldnt do that at first .
I din't know that . I really don't know .

" 我知道多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过．．"

王力宏- 爱错 

我的错。

昨晚我根本睡不着。一直都在想着那件事。
爱情？友情？
可是请你们搞清楚先 。
我以为他们分了我才和他一起的 。
我根本不懂他和你的事 ！ 对不起。


我不是要你们来原谅这样的我
不过，我还要对你说声对不起 ！
真得很对不起！


我做了一个决定。
我知道终有一天我一定会后悔的

可是、如果我不做这个决定以后我会更后悔。
我选择友情 ！
姐妹是一辈子的！我知道了。对不起！

不过，我知道怎样都好我们的友情都不会再像以前酱的 ！
可是，我已经错了一次、不能再错多一次了...
不管你们怎样讲我、怎样讨厌我...
我还会选友情 ！



分手了。
是我的错
全都是我的错！

 

这点痛不算是什么。
我知道你心里的‘痛’ 
对不起。
是我的错

我想说得已经说完了。

最后，只想对你说声

对不起 。

SINGLE

I CHOOSED FRIEND !

SORRY ! SORRY ! SORRY !

过去。

爱他我想后退了。 

想回到过去、 好想回到以前无忧无虑的时候。    
现在呢…？好像已经晚了！        
开心是一天。伤心也是一天。     
我 …为什么放着开心的日子不过…而过伤心的日子呢？ 
嗯…可能是我有病！ 


我的心告诉我、要我坚持、下去
而我每天因为那件事烦恼。伤心
我承受不了…
脑子里总是有那个阴影！
不管你怎么表现自己、我也忘不了你的过去。      


我相信你。但是我的心在流泪！    

Whole day ; Holiday !

21/8/09


ss


Beloved iko !

Morning went eat with baby .
After eat din't go anywhere .
He just fetch me back .
At night went Cineleisure watch Disney Pixar UP !
Actually I planned to watch on saturday 22.8.09 but my cousin won some tickets from astro.
So . . . Why not ?!
Darn nice !
We ate MCD Bubur Ayam inside ! *dots .
I love♥ MC FLURRY OREO .
hees*

SKIP -

22/8/09


I look weird ~ ewweww !
xiao jun lebih punya xD


Babeh aiko .

7.00 am my dad call me wake up for breakfast .
Tut !@#$%^&*($# damn tired !
After eat get ready for everything .
Baby fetch me to 1u !
There 3 pairs of couple♥ do-re-mi
do=tall ; kiko , zhen huan
re=medium ; m and m
mi=short ; aiko , xiao jin
Laughs*

Had to watch UP again.
No choice ! They bought ticket ady -.-"
Then before movie start we went Old Town Cafe .
Dots* joking around.
We din't go for sing k because I'm not enough time .
Had to go for BBQ Party .
So just went jusco , eat ; Food and Tea .
Stupid bei ~ Telling cool jokes *

Skip -

Home .
BBQ , Useless I can't even BBQ a chicken wing in a whole night !
Freaking Pissed !
I just sat there wait for ppl to burn for me .__.
Suddenly receive a msg from iimo
" TVB 8 有鬼戏　"
Wow ! damn horrible !
having a shouting party instead of BBQ party !
Iko sleep over in my house , we're colouring nails because too bored !
awww ! Holiday with h1n1 sucks !
):

My whole day ; freaking tired !

Finish .
gtg ... ciao ~

Facebook ; freak mode. wees xD !

Playing facebook recently .
click - FACEBOOK®
Friendster have problem !
Can't approve friend and even some of my friend gone from my friend list .
Well , Doesnt really care... ON FACEOOK.
Friendster throw aside awile x;
h0h0s !

Addicted to Pet Society .

Well kinda bored now x;

WIN ME IN WAKA-WAKA xD
http://apps.facebook.com/waka-waka/

Try on ffs - friend for sale
http://apps.facebook.com/friendsforsale/users/show/136431119

I took a few quizzes from facebook.
This's the most awesome result ! quite accurate
a quiz from facebook .
" What does your birthday say about you "
Quite Accurate !
MY-FACEBOOK
m-miko@live.com

here's my result !

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

.

facebook . ®

Shopping ;

Shopping day .
After school went shopping with ah vinz , wen aka longkang , xiao bibi , peggy , and some strangers.
h0h0s !
Watch 大內密探零零狗 again =.="
They call me not to tell them the stories ;
awws !

Then go walk awile pui the dai xiu jie ' wen ' buy cloth .
She try on many clothes and just bought 1
Stupiak popo !

I can't stay longer cause I have tuition at night .
I wore a Jeans with half elasticated.
Then calvin ; english teacher was like so damn freaking shocked !
he said " wow ! mengli you pants so long ! "
Because he said 'we' always wear short pants .
And now i wore half elasticated he's give a face of shocked !
Omgosh ! He's such a jerk !
Nothing much ... In tuition sms,hear song, and study ; durh ~

Back home -
Sleep . . .